This is why I dont go camping.

oil on canvas painting by Eric Zenner

Amazing.

Fossil find fills in picture of ancient marine life

Fossil find fills in picture of ancient marine life

Filling in the missing links in the evolution of species.

Water was present during birth of Earth, study of silver suggests

Water was present during birth of Earth, study of silver suggests

"and whatever happened to a boyfriend? The kind of guy who tries to win you over? and what ever happened to a boyfriend? The kind of guy who makes love cause hes in it... and I want a boyfriend. I want all the stupid old shit, like letters and sodas"

You think Im going to take a running start to jump into your bed. Youre wrong.

"I can feel it in my bones, Im gonna spend another year alone"

We will have it all in one year. Ill keep telling myself that if you are convinced.

"I can feel it in my bones, Im gonna spend my whole life alone!"

You say give it time but time is slipping away... What about getting married? and having babies? and doing all of those other social expectations that make us New Mexican, or American, or Human, or whatever else we want to be. Im not that kind of girl to you, I guess. Fuck & run.

"even since I was twelve"

Its never satisfying and never worth it. Ive learned and changed.

I hope youre warm right now. I know the bering sea can be so cold. You can be so cold. Make such bad decisions. Blame others for things that are your own fault. As much as these characteristics frustrate, I adore each one as well. You are a man. You remind me of my father. Stern, hard working, dedicated, masculine, serious, you enjoy your beer and hot chicks. My mom used to say I should marry you some day. Dont think the thought hasnt crossed my mind. To let me take care of you without spending a dime. Fulfill that emptiness you have... but you chase the ones that will never take care of you. That is what you want. You seek an unrealistic woman and for that I feel bad for you because you are so blind. I dont remember what I told you that night that we sat out side LAPD pizza after bar crowd. I just remember looking at you like I wanted you to read my soul and then asking you detailed questions about what youd learned. Like a pop quiz. Maybe if I had a verticle vagina youd be interested? Would I want you if you were. Of course I wasnt surprised when you asked me in that big fluffy warm bed after drinking till 4 am. Im glad I said no. It was merry christmas after all :) You are special in my life.