I hope youre warm right now. I know the bering sea can be so cold. You can be so cold. Make such bad decisions. Blame others for things that are your own fault. As much as these characteristics frustrate, I adore each one as well. You are a man. You remind me of my father. Stern, hard working, dedicated, masculine, serious, you enjoy your beer and hot chicks. My mom used to say I should marry you some day. Dont think the thought hasnt crossed my mind. To let me take care of you without spending a dime. Fulfill that emptiness you have... but you chase the ones that will never take care of you. That is what you want. You seek an unrealistic woman and for that I feel bad for you because you are so blind. I dont remember what I told you that night that we sat out side LAPD pizza after bar crowd. I just remember looking at you like I wanted you to read my soul and then asking you detailed questions about what youd learned. Like a pop quiz. Maybe if I had a verticle vagina youd be interested? Would I want you if you were. Of course I wasnt surprised when you asked me in that big fluffy warm bed after drinking till 4 am. Im glad I said no. It was merry christmas after all :) You are special in my life.