Dearest ______,
I cant say your name because I could get into BIG trouble. You already know how that is. I cant believe its been so long since Ive heard from you. I thought we we had was special. It was special to me at least. Maybe Im just another name on the list. Who knows? But I can fantasize right? I still get shit for that entry in my journal about your soft smooth skin. It hurts to even think of it.
When I cross the river I think of you. Then that leads to thinking of how that day almost ruined my life. Haha. Funny how that works. Remember getting twigs and dirt in our socks and it was like walking on gravel until we got back to your car and emptied them out? Remind me why we didnt take a blanket with us...? Its not like we didnt know what we were going to go do down there.
How are you? Ive heard endless rumors and see you log into your music page from time to time. My face still graces your top 8 which I guess counts for something? Do you check on me? Wonder how I am? I miss you. I think Im doomed to miss you for the rest of my life. I can still see my rationale for not making it into more all those years ago. But it doesnt mean it isnt still sore.
I hope youre happy and well.
<3