Bahahahahaha I ate pepperonis today and thought of you. I could hear you called me "pepperoni nipples" while cody giggled like a retard. Haha. Ive been trying to contact you lately but youve been so distant. You say its because you got a new girl. I guess thats possible. Wouldnt be the first time but I think we both know your still hurt with me about when you got out and how I wouldnt let you come stay here. Ive explained numerous times but apparently no explanation will make you any happier with me. I know you feel betrayed. Ive always been here for you, especially when you got out of prison and needed safe haven... but I just couldnt afford it this time. I know how it will go. It always goes that way. Im surprised I havent seen you once and youve been out for a couple months already. That first night I saw you in wagon mound after all that time. Do you remember what I told you? and didnt it happen? I knew it would never ever be the same. How could it be? Were not kids anymore. I only have you to share certain memories with... I have flash backs of building rafts out of spare wood to get accross the tiny pond. Dying eggs every easter. You used to pull my hair and do mean things to me! Remember going on missions through town? with dumbass cody! Spending time on the stairs... sometimes Id wait up all night hoping that you would come over. Looking out that big glass window in the front, looking down at your house. Every now and then the light in the bathroom would come on. And sometimes when I was really lucky you would suddenly be there! and we were young and touched and kissed and I still cant believe how innocent yet passionate it was. I learned to kiss from you. I can still remember my mom calling me in and us kissing goodbye and not wanting to stop... all at the end of that little driveway in a tiny town in the middle of no where. Remember walking me home, laughing and talking shit going up that little hill under that single street light that buzzed and attracted insects from miles away. Remember drinking peppermint schnapps when I was way too young then getting high and giggling until my mom caught me?? She yelled at me for at least an hour in the last bedroom at the house. She would spy on us out of that bedroom when we would go makeout in the yard ;) haha. I miss you. Ill say it again. Not even in the "I want to fuck you and be with you" kind of miss. Just that genuin "I miss hearing your voice, wish you were around" kinda miss you. I love you and always have since I could say the word love. We will talk again soon. I know.
until then <3 Pornslap haha