"and whatever happened to a boyfriend? The kind of guy who tries to win you over? and what ever happened to a boyfriend? The kind of guy who makes love cause hes in it... and I want a boyfriend. I want all the stupid old shit, like letters and sodas"

You think Im going to take a running start to jump into your bed. Youre wrong.

"I can feel it in my bones, Im gonna spend another year alone"

We will have it all in one year. Ill keep telling myself that if you are convinced.

"I can feel it in my bones, Im gonna spend my whole life alone!"

You say give it time but time is slipping away... What about getting married? and having babies? and doing all of those other social expectations that make us New Mexican, or American, or Human, or whatever else we want to be. Im not that kind of girl to you, I guess. Fuck & run.

"even since I was twelve"

Its never satisfying and never worth it. Ive learned and changed.